i totally dont need you to add more trouble for me
go and die?
sure.
thanks so much kor.

it was just yesterday when all of us were playing and laughing together.
and yet. today everything went wrong.
is it me?
whatever you know.
its not about CHOOSING your friends wisely anymore.
its about the trust and the respect you have.




ive learnt manymany things.
1) never ever plan smth when one is not able to invite all friends
2) make specific details in messages
3) just the close bestest ones will do.
4) if you wanna plan things, plan properly, and make sure you dont spoil others plans.


this happened to me just 2 yrs ago.
like, i didnt know you all were going out tgt,
and i wanted to plan some ypsb section outing shitz.
it backfired.
but, i know. that was my fault right.
like, i was the bad person. yea. whatever.
learnt my lesson alr.




just, hopefully the chalet will turn out well as planned.
seriously.



anyway, this is MY blog.
i can rant whatever i want.
so if you're not pleased with what i write,
i suggest you just get out off this place.




ciao.
shall think about my new yr resolutions and what im gonna do to my life next yr.
bye.


edit/

you might be thinking, this girl siao, one night blog 3 times.
feeling like shit.
whatever you know.



im lucky to know, ive got friends,
real true friends.
im very lucky.
to know that they are always there.
i need not name them out, because,
these pple know who they are =D
thanks.

oh WOW.



to you-know-who:



prolly after reading this, it might spoil our friendship or whatsoever, but i cannot stand the way YOU do things anymore. whats with the, "let's-go-mt.-faber" shit man. seriously, if you have NO plans for the new yr countdown and you jolly well know that im having a small party at home, dont dam it come and "suggest to my invited guests" CAN?

i may sound damn bitch here but you freaking have NO IDEA how it feels like, when you planned for who and who to come, and everything is 99.9% settled, just waiting for the party to come, and you have to spoil plans.

Have you ever thought, how to get to that freaking ulu place?

have you thought of the inconvenience to people?

have you thought of what is going to happen there?

HAVE YOU? i bet you havent

to each of their own thoughts.
"go for her party then leave at 10 plus like that lah!"

yes, sure you can, like, spoil my countdown party?

so sure manz.

and then what, take taxi and get caught in jams, pay more $$ and walk up the hill? what a brilliant idea. makes me pissed off only.

my house boring?

1) uve nv come to my house before, AT ALL

2) you dont know what games we have planned out

3) dont frigging jump into your wonderful conclusions.

if you're gonna say " eh, i going mt. faber tmr, not going your party."
you'll prolly see me not talking to you anymore okay.

its not that i diedie want people to come over for my party,

its the responsibility you have okay.

in fact, i was rather excited all for tomorrow, but all these shit has made me feel like cancelling the whole shitz.

its seriously crappy lah,

plus, for the past 2 new years, it has been my house. and YOU weren't here THEN.









what a great way to end my year. wts man.

anyway, im currently sick, with a very sexy voice, and blocked nose. so you dam it dont piss me off.





anyway, in fact i have A LOT of things to blog about,

like



-wenyan's bbq

-cmb section dinner at amanda's house

-mouthpieces

-wayne's bbq

-nyjc concert w malaysian band

-jc band fest

-my new resolution

-my random ramblings

-my missings





AIYA.

EVERYTHING LAH.

super extremely pissed now.

wtf.

editted/

suggestions?

opinions?

YEA SURE.






was very pissed.
if i had knew it was such a crappy job to plan, i wouldnt do it.


anyway, to those out there, planning is not a easy thing to do.

okay, the past was being an ass, he said
I RMB YOUR HAIRSTYLE ON PROM.
the he drew.
a circle, with strands of hair.
which made it looked like,
egg + sperms
wth
AND I AM 100% SURE MY HAIR DIDNT LOOK LIKE THAT LAH!!!!
so sad right.
forgot to take screen shot!




and just, now
the past showed me snowwwwwww
omg.
okay
ill go overseas with my loved ones soon, and I WANT TO PLAY IN THE SNOW!
<33333333333
awwwwwww.





yea, miss the goondoo there,
and the one in paris.
hhahahahaa
=))))
<333333333333>

starting work tmr!
office administrator=S find me for lunch man!
suntec city level 5!
byebye!

WHOOHOO.
my morning was whooohooo! =D
because the past talked to me.
hahaha
so happened he was online, so I WAS LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY ZOMG.
and i was screaming at home.
think im crazy? yes i am. LOL
he sent me his "daily diary" thing
SO, HAHAHA. its super hilarious, ask him for it if you want to read it.
lol


yea
morning was great.
but i didnt have the time to practice kopprasch
=(



i was dying, rushing out stupid resume in order to meet clarissa at 4pm
yes.
like,
eating, reading his diary thing, laughing, doing resume.
so dumb right



starting work officially on thurs!
so,
yah, meet me for dinner then!


AHHHHHH.
decoders ?
nah
HAVE TO DO LAST MIN SHOPPING FOR BELOVED LI AND VERNA,
raffles peeps =)

oh yea! i saw alicia young and lydia foo!!!!

=)))



miss all these people!!
=D



well
my day started good!
so it should end good too right!



=D
christmas whoohoo!
plan people, PLAN




just because this yr i didnt plan anything, there's no events going on? =(
oh well.




enjoy people!

im talking to a past tense currently,
and quarreling with an idiot right now.
the idiot, is really an idiot.
like, wtf.
NOT LIKE YOU ALWAYS COME TO TALK TO ME WHENEVER RIGHT.
YOU TALK TO ME WHEN YOU FEEL SAD IN THE PAST.
wtf.
you suck.



apparently, i seem to miss the past tense more,
however,
he is ____
but, no , i dont discriminate against ____
but just that,
wont it feel weird telling him, i miss you so ?
gosh




i think im like. crazy or something
why the hell am i missing him
gosh.



I MISS ELLISEEEEEEE
whooohooo.

HELLO!
im back from um, walk with joelle


we had din tai fung today.
yum yum
hoho
and.
i seriously dont like starbucks. taste like crap.
coffee bean is best.
anw. im still full from all the breakfast/lunch.
oh yea.
the extension jp isnt that great anyway
just,
more foods, and more shops,
not cheap anyway.
id rather shop at marina or something

oh yea.
today was collecting money from puvaneas and marina.
whoohoo.
marina joined us for tea.
hahaha
=D




my two entertainers gone,
but i found a new one!
mEVILn
whahahha.
evil!



uh,
job?
no job?
boohoo.



kopprasch is tough =( boohoo.

okay. im getting bored though.
ellise prolly reached London alr.
alex prolly has 10+ hrs more to go..
hope they are enjoying themselves alr =D



uh. ytd night was bad though.
quarrel over some stupid book, i think its damn dumb
you dont owe me or anything okay. its just that...
i really long ago wanted that book.


and. um.
ya, really wanna take up horn lessons soon.
i feel like =S
without playing horn
yups.


anyway. had 1 1/2 hr of piano today. damn tired lah

hahahaa. heard that today there were no horns for ac band.
hahaha. tts cute right.
damn cute lah!


well
i had fish and co for lunch this afternn with my sis.
very very yummy!
whoohoo



rawr.
COME BACK SOON ELLISE AND ALEX~
omg.
sounds as if they went on a holiday together.
*gasp*
hahahaha



i need to work!
omg.
feeling super lazy.

im so sad because ellise, alex, and many others are leaving. =(



and.
i dont know what you are so pissed abt.
sometimes you are sooooo nice to me,
another time, you are like, devil to me.


the ultimate.


both contrasts, but both are the best.
what the heck are you refering to?
argh,
whatever lah.
you wanna be so pissed, go ahead.
i cannot stop you



im trying to be so dam nice and sweet alr
apparently, you are just being and idiot wtf.
no,
its called, fucking idiot.



vulgar, but who cares.

anw,
yes,
miss ellise,
miss alex
miss everyone!








=D

im so sad because ellise, alex, and many others are leaving. =(



and.
i dont know what you are so pissed abt.
sometimes you are sooooo nice to me,
another time, you are like, devil to me.


the ultimate.

im super pissed.




i woke up vomiting
wtf.
my stomach feels like crap now.
argh



im too sick to even go out today.
so sad right.

and, not like you even bother lah. like, ya thanks for msging me saying sorry,
but.
whats the point?
do you know how i felt last night?
like damn. i wanted so badly to talk to you
i havent talked to you properly since long time ago.
and, yea.
there's just somethings in my heart.

i dont even feel like forgiving you.
it sucks because, it feels as though you dont even give a damn
not like you care
you care mostly all about dasao.
what do i actually mean in your life?
i bet i mean nothing to you at all.
it hurts like f.
all your sweet nothings.
are not working on me anymore.
no more.
no longer.
you are just a different person from the past.




linda?? says:
that shows how much you even care okay
(h.b.w.f.d.s.p)queen of my heart-walter monnig french horn=) says:
...
(h.b.w.f.d.s.p)queen of my heart-walter monnig french horn=) says:
hais
(h.b.w.f.d.s.p)queen of my heart-walter monnig french horn=) says:
i do

yea right.


im just effing blind to have even had feelings for you for the past 3 years,
i wonder how i had lived my life last time,
you're a different person totally.
if the reason is because of dasao,
i tell you. SHE SUCKS.
not that she's like so pretty or whatsoever,
the way she treats you, makes me feel like shit because, i know. i can treat you 1341342363453 times better. anyway, not like you'll read this anyway. why should i care?


argh.
im just plain dumb.
wtf.


im feeling so helpless right now,
i used to be able to tell you stuff and cry to you
but, not now anymore.
not like you even fucking give a damn
call me sensitive?
no, im not. totally not.



i think you are just fucking dumb, i feel like slapping you
if you cant even lend your sis a horn for free,
what other fuck can you do for me?


yea, to end with a happy note,
i miss the ac band people im always with.
Ellise, amanda, yinghao, alex, jim, wenyan, david......
yada yada.


TO ELLISE AND ALEX:
gosh,
i dont know who's gonna entertain me for the whole month of dec when both of you are not here okay =(
so sad.
one off to london, the other off to US,
=(
so sad.
argh
dont leave me here alone!!
=(
=(
THESE 2 kukus, are the ones who made my november so enjoyable.
yea, seriously very enjoyable.
all the fun laughters, over the phone, msn convos, smses, bitching abt people..
HAHHA.
gosh.
hahahahahhaa.ftw man.
FUBAR!

today was a fruitful picnic with amandeeee and TTT.

hahhaaa.

loves them still =D

yesterday was sort of "official end-of-my-acband-tune-in day"

yea,

so we had dinner, at holland V.

i really, um

thank yinghao, for being such a great SL, teaching us with patience, and um, yupp. i learnt much from him too. It's really enjoyable to be able to play in a section again. well, ah. okay. its not the time to get emo though.

thanks alex, for being such a great section mate. yupp.

thanks wenyan, for bringing so much laughters.

thanks murhani, for being the only female with me in the section.

thanks weiming, great to know you

ahaaaa..

i love my ac section mates!

very very nice people

it has been long since ive updated,

ive lost all my drive to blog about my daily life, my thoughts, my feelings.
It's gone.

Three weeks since the big Os ended, i feel totally relaxed and im packed and filled with horn and piano. passion is what makes it. i feel good when i play horn or my piano. Totally great! =)


seriously, i really would like to play under mr. tan again.
the feeling will totally be different.


i personally feel that jc, is not really a great place to be in.
well, it definitely much depends on the people whom you mix with and where you really belong to. im really tired. really really tired.


My ac section mates are a great bunch of people to mix with. laughters, joy, smiles ......
yea. horns and oboes are like always close.. yea. very great people to be with. When you are sad, they try to understand you and make you smile. lovely people.



im guilty of not spending time with my classmates and my clique........
sorry. everytime they ask me out, ill always reply, sorry im not free..
sigh.
sorry, ill meet u all soon...




ive been going ac, because i really enjoy playing in a band once again. improving more and more every practice. So glad.




i dont see whats wrong man

1) i dont like you
2) i dont like you
3) I REALLY DONT LIKE YOU.

rumours are just nonsensical stuff coming from people's mouth.
i totally dislike it to the max.